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Hello 25

I see myself feeling free, walking in my truest purpose, committed to the man of my dreams, traveling the world, building and fostering relationships.
— BB

Life.  That's all I can focus on as I actually write this as a 24 year old....although by the time you see it, I will be 25 (God willing).  Life.  A lot of my 24th year was spent on moving, physically, mentally, and emotionally.  Moving to a higher point - a higher place.  However, with such large amounts of moving, there was tons of discomfort and a crap load of questions.  So much transpired in the last 12 months, I met a ton of goals, and also failed to reach a few as well.  My 24th year was filled with a lot of happy, there were moments where I stopped to thank God for his blessings, where I stopped to relish in the fact that I felt great physically, that I was well mentally.  Things that we often times take for granted, that we forget are a luxury.  My love life at 24 was laughable, literally.  I laughed a lot, met interesting people, but more importantly learned a ton.  I severed old ties and maintained growing friendships.  Yet, there were still a number of questions needing answers.  The below questions took me months to think on and answer and I thought what better birthday gift for me than to share this with you...hopefully it inspires someone.

What makes you happy?
Being at peace.  Having no worries.  When I'm not stressing over things that I really have no control over.  The usual stuff - issues over work, money, love.  I am happiest when I feel as though there is balance.  When there is balance, there is peace for me.

What makes you sad?
The idea of losing - the feeling of having lost.  

What are some things in the past that you haven’t let go?
I haven't forgiven myself truly and fully for certain choices.  Mostly because I am naturally a person who seeks and observes to understand.  I don't exactly understand some of my own actions, which is why I have the toughest time coming to grips with them, and ultimately releasing them.

Are they holding you back?
Yes, of course - in more ways than I can think of.  It doesn't stay in one area, it manifests itself in all parts of my life.  It's cancerous.

Are you holding grudges?
Subconsciously, yes.  With intention, no.  I release all, or at least I try to.

Are there people you don’t forgive?
Yes.  One.

What are you most afraid of and why?
I am most afraid of becoming my own worst enemy.  Standing in my own way, rather it be from fear, holding grudges, uncertainty or insecurities.

How do you see your ‘perfect life’ in the next 5 years? 10 years?
I see myself feeling free, walking in my truest purpose, committed to the man of my dreams, traveling the world, building and fostering relationships.  Being an inspiration, practicing what it feels like to be happy on a daily basis.

What do you want your legacy to be?
I'm still working on that.....

How do you want to be remembered by people who only get a chance to meet you one time?As a breath of fresh air, a woman with a purpose, someone who sets an intention and goes after it full force.  In short, graceful, classy, poised, driven, smart, dedicated.

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY TO ME AND TO ALL OF YOU WHO ARE CELEBRATING TOO!

-BB

Go Confidently in the direction of your dreams, live the life you have imagined - Henry David Thoreau

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